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Come die with me for a while...

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[Oct. 19th, 2004|12:26 am]
Come die with me for a while...

comediewithme

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[Current Mood |crushedcrushed]

damn........ i've never felt this lonely again till now... damn it... i hate crying like this. i should've been writing in deadjournal (while i'm still alive that is) but i can't open the damn create link!! damn....

i'm already telling the very few people in my friends' list that, after a week, i'd be deleting ALL of you in my list. i dunno... just feel like my journal entries won't serve you anything. blah.

but why am i still writing in this place?

for one very simple wish... and am only gonna write this once...

that maybe... MAYBE... someday... somehow... someone can empathize with me.

i nearly forgot this pain already... having fun with games... with my friends... with my niece... with my family... i thought i'm finally through this...

but... weird enough... there is one thing that always reminds me of my pain... and damn... how i care for that one thing that i can never escape being reminded over and over again... damn

God knows how it hurts... it hurts like hell especially now.... and yet... i'll be feeling this again and again until i let go of that one very important thing and move on... but i can't... HOW CAN YOU LEAVE SOMEBODY WHO IS SO IMPORTANT TO YOU?! And damn... that person will neevr know... i'll never want her to know... but God it hurts like hell to be with her and at the same time, i care for her very much that i can't imagine leaving her and the life i already created now... damn

and damn

it's nobody's fault... i know the problem...

i can't find a worth in me
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